Overwhelmed & weepy

This past week I have just felt overwhelmed, and weepy off and on. Not sure why I'm feeling weepy, I guess I'm just not that emotionally stable right now. Too many things on my mind, some things I wish I could just forget forever, some things I will never forget. There little thoughts that swirl around in my head and may be quiet for a time, but then creep up on me...words that whisper how inadequate I am. I try not to listen, but it's hard not to at times. There are words my father and I spoke together a month ago that I don't ever want to forget.

Being overwhelmed though, I know exactly why I'm feeling this way. So very much to do...too much for one person. I look around my house and wonder how I could ever keep up. Yikes! It's so frustrating how messy the house has become and how there is so little time to do anything about it. Some would say it doesn't matter, but a messy house creates this feeling of stress inside of me. When things are more in order I feel peaceful. So, this weekend I tackled my bedroom and cleaned up really well...it now feels peaceful to go in there. I also got our family room in order, although not as dusted and vacuumed as I'd like, but movies and games are back in order and there is a feeling of peace when I walk thru there now.
Now my big project is finishing picking up and organizing ds2's room...if anyone wonders where the last tornado touched down, well it was in there. Ds2 is at church youth camp until Sunday night so I decided to overall his room. I took out more toys than any one child should ever have, rearranged his furniture, vacuumed thoroughly, and then stood looking at the mountain of toys that somehow have to go back in there...like that's going to happen!

Then it's time to get to work on my new classes starting up in a couple weeks...I have notebooks to put together, handouts to print out, and a few things to purchase. I'm so excited to get back into teaching. Before we moved here 3 years ago, I was teaching 2 nights a week with about 6-8 couples per class...it was great! And it looks like it will happen again.

So, being overwhelmed & weepy is justified I guess...maybe it's time to quit for the day, eat the batch of chocolate chip cookies I made (yes, I took time to bake!), and put in a good movie.

Tomorrow's another day...and everything will be there waiting for me...