Pregnant in America

Here is the trailer to a new film that will be coming out:
http://pregnantinamerica.com/#TRAILER

Take a look!

The flu blug has bitten us..

Well, it's been a looooong week of taking care of two kids both down with the flu. Yesterday the darn ol' flu bug bit me really hard on my hiney....rats! I just can't be sick, absolutely, cannot, do not want to, be sick right now...I have my first class starting next week and my second one the following week...way too much to do, no time for laying around miserable.
I'm so determined to kick this flu in it's behind...I'm taking mega doses of vitamin C & echinacea, drinking lots of strong black tea to help in coughing up this crud inside of me, eating tons of chicken noodle soup, and praying really hard that I'm 100%, totally cured by the end of today...yeah, well I can believe in the power of pray can't I???

Overwhelmed & weepy

This past week I have just felt overwhelmed, and weepy off and on. Not sure why I'm feeling weepy, I guess I'm just not that emotionally stable right now. Too many things on my mind, some things I wish I could just forget forever, some things I will never forget. There little thoughts that swirl around in my head and may be quiet for a time, but then creep up on me...words that whisper how inadequate I am. I try not to listen, but it's hard not to at times. There are words my father and I spoke together a month ago that I don't ever want to forget.

Being overwhelmed though, I know exactly why I'm feeling this way. So very much to do...too much for one person. I look around my house and wonder how I could ever keep up. Yikes! It's so frustrating how messy the house has become and how there is so little time to do anything about it. Some would say it doesn't matter, but a messy house creates this feeling of stress inside of me. When things are more in order I feel peaceful. So, this weekend I tackled my bedroom and cleaned up really well...it now feels peaceful to go in there. I also got our family room in order, although not as dusted and vacuumed as I'd like, but movies and games are back in order and there is a feeling of peace when I walk thru there now.
Now my big project is finishing picking up and organizing ds2's room...if anyone wonders where the last tornado touched down, well it was in there. Ds2 is at church youth camp until Sunday night so I decided to overall his room. I took out more toys than any one child should ever have, rearranged his furniture, vacuumed thoroughly, and then stood looking at the mountain of toys that somehow have to go back in there...like that's going to happen!

Then it's time to get to work on my new classes starting up in a couple weeks...I have notebooks to put together, handouts to print out, and a few things to purchase. I'm so excited to get back into teaching. Before we moved here 3 years ago, I was teaching 2 nights a week with about 6-8 couples per class...it was great! And it looks like it will happen again.

So, being overwhelmed & weepy is justified I guess...maybe it's time to quit for the day, eat the batch of chocolate chip cookies I made (yes, I took time to bake!), and put in a good movie.

Tomorrow's another day...and everything will be there waiting for me...

This is your life...

I love this song...the melody is beautiful and the words are something to really think on...

This Is Your Life by Switchfoot
Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
Yesterday is a promise that you've broken
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes

This is your life and today is all you've got now
And today is all you'll ever have
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
This is your life
Are you who you want to be
This is your life
Are you who you want to be
This is your life
Is it everything you've dreamed it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes

Yesterday is a kid in the corner
Yesterday is dead and over
This is your life
Are you who you want to be
This is your life
Are you who you want to be
This is your life is it everything you've dreamed it would be when the world was younger and you had everything to lose
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes

I think of my father who lies dying....he is scared to close his eyes because it could be the last time...his days are short, his days are numbered....when his last one is only God knows. For the rest of us we wait and wonder when he will be taken home, and I ponder my life and wonder if I am living each day as I should...wondering, am I who I want to be, is my life everything I've dreamed it would be.

I am working hard at building up my childbirth classes and it's happening! I have 6 women registered for March classes, and about 5 others interested. I have 2 locations that I will teach at, holding two simultaneous classes weekly. I hope to start doing monthly healthy pregnancy classes in a month or so, and then start taking on doula clients again. The doors are opening and it's thrilling to be doing what I'm called to do.

I'm also excited to be able to attend the Midwifery Today conference in Eugene, OR this year! Yippee!! I'm going to room with a woman I have been emailing with who was going to attend the midwifery school I am enrolled in. It will be so uplifting to be surrounded by all these wonderful midwives and birth speakers...I think I will come home refreshed and ready to take on the world.